I remember what it was like to sleep. Those were the days!
Three weeks now, my wife and I have co-existed with our offspring. I love the little guy. I really do. But…
MY GOD! Does he ever have a set of lungs!
To say our nights have been restless would be an understatement.
The last few weeks have been far from bliss. For some reason, our beloved newborn has decided that he will gladly sleep through parts of the day. Fantastic news, right? However, after his 9:30pm feeding, he has also decided to go full werewolf and howl, scream, wail, and screech his way through the night and into the wee hours of the morning. He must be held. He does not want to go in the bassinet. He does not want us to sleep.
It would seem that the tales were true!
Now, normally this wouldn’t bother me, but I’ve also recently returned to work, so sleep has once again become precious to my ability to function. And as the saying goes, “no sleep makes me no think good.” Or something along those lines…
Besides the fact that it seems like he has his day and night mixed up, he goes through phases where he’s a little uncomfortable. He doesn’t burp a lot. He doesn’t fart a lot. He looks a bit bloated in the belly. If I was him, I’d probably cry too! We’ve added probiotic drops to his diet. He’s on vitamin D. We’re doing everything we can, but it just never feels like it’s enough. He’s determined to sing the song of his people! And I wouldn’t count on it hitting the top 50 list anytime soon…
I have never felt as helpless or inadequate as a human being as I do now. I suppose these are the challenges of being a new and inexperienced parent.
Regardless, we keep going. Because for some unfathomable reason, we love him.
We are exhausted. We are cranky. We are sometimes on the verge of a breakdown.
But we love him.
Because in the end, I choose to believe it will be worth it.
“Take life as it comes. Run when you have to, fight when you must, rest when you can.” Words to live by.
And so, we brush ourselves off, take a deep breath, and head into the night once more…